Dizzying Speed of Life

It has been a while since I’ve posted. Life has been happening at a dizzying pace. In the weeks since my last post, I’ve travelled, sprained my foot, completed a petsit, suffered from 10 days of vertigo, said goodbye to our sweet 12 year old cat that got suddenly sick, celebrated Thanksgiving, and now here I am working on Christmas cards and decorations.

A New Sensation

Just thinking back to that time makes my head spin. The experience of having gone through such a concentrated chaotic time has had a peculiar side effect. All of the sudden, my life seems very ordinary, uneventful and maybe even, I’d even go as far as to say, peaceful. The feeling is rather pleasant and also unnerving, almost like I know there’s something important that I need to do, but I can’t for the life of me recall what that is.

What am I Missing?

The fear is that all of the sudden I’ll remember what that important thing was and have an anxiety attack because I can’t believe I forgot it and I’m way way way behind schedule! It’s like my body is feeling peaceful, but my nervous brain doesn’t trust that sensation and is just waiting for the other proverbial shoe to drop (aka see previous post on pessimism).

Accept the Present Moment

But for now, I am going to accept the peace (even if it is due to ignorance or forgetfulness). I will take this sense of calm and enjoy it. Because inevitably… it won’t last.